I am such an idiot...

Urgh! Not sure if I am venting about myself or my sister...

Today is my older sister's birthday. She and I live across the country from each other. She remembered my birthday, sending me a big box and cookies... She also sent a big box to my wife, whose birthday was the 10th. She is planning (was planning?) on sending a box for our anniversary on the 13th.

I've been talking about these three days for weeks. I've even posted about them. Today we went to work early, just got home. We had really good news from our managers and I could not wait to call my other older sister to tell her... I didn't even realize today was the 12th. So, instead of my other older sister, my birthday-today sister got the phone. I said "Oh, hi!" and began to excitedly tell HER the news... I heard my other older sister saying something in the background. So I stopped talking and waited. I go "What did she say?" laughing, 'cause my sisters are goofy. She goes "She wants to know if you're singing me happy birthday."

Ooooh fuck.

So then I go into this confusing rambling of how I didn't realize what today was and that I was having a great day with great news and I thought tonight was Sunday. I rambled on and contradicted myself about fifty times. I also said I fell (which I did, but I landed on something soft and I fell 'cause I'm clumsy!) and was a bit confused. I just kept going on and on.

I felt HORRIBLE and I didn't know what to do. I should have said "Wait, what? Today is the 12th? Oh my gosh, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!" but instead I made myself sound like a complete idiot. >.<

Now, however, is where I think I am venting about her...

She was pissed. Down right pissed. First she decided to get even by saying someone in my family who I hate, remembered. Then she was just "mmhmm"-ing everything. If it was my birthday, I'd be hurt if they forgot. But if I got the phone and they were excited and went on about something different, I'd probably figure they just got caught up in the moment or they didn't know what day it was, etc.

If they seemed flustered and lied, I'd realize they just didn't want to hurt me and I'd say that and tell them I was fine. I wouldn't make them feel like shit, nor would I try and get even with them.

So now I don't really know what to do... It would have been a lot better if I just apologized and went from there, but no, I had to act like a complete fool... Totally embarrassing myself. Urgh, urgh, urgh.